Have you ever forgotten how to love yourself and be happy with your own company?
Last night Jake went out to a concert with his cousin and I spent the evening alone at home by myself. After being so used to the same routine it was a little odd to be on my own for once. I mean, yes Jake does his own thing, and so do I! But it is never really for an entire evening. Normally when Jake goes out I make plans of my own, but this time I didn't.
For the first hour, I kind of just sat on the couch not knowing what to do. I had literally forgotten how to love myself and be my own company. Weird right? Then I started thinking to myself "when was the last time I was alone?". Then it hit me, I had forgotten to take time for myself.
Realizing that scared me a little. I mean, we spend all day with ourselves, but we basically have ourselves on mute in the back of our own mind. We ignore what our bodies are calling for. We push aside the things that make us happy. All because we are so focused on paying attention to everybody else around us. Don't get me wrong, it's not others that are the issue... it's me. I haven't been blocking off time for myself and what makes me happy.
So I spent last night doing the things I love. I watched Legally Blonde and 50 Shades Of Grey. I took a long bath with my favourite bath salts, coconut oil, and a bath bomb. While soaking, I did a hydrating face mask and sat on Pinterest looking at Christmas decor and outfit inspo. I made myself a cup of my favourite tea. Then I went to bed early and watched a Rom-Com. I won't lie... it was one of the best nights I have had in a really long time. The result was me waking up this morning feeling like a new person who's ready to conquer the world.
Today I was able to give my full attention to those around me. I didn't feel drained. I was able to love freely. I was the best version of myself today. I felt it and those around me could see it.
This has taught me one major lesson...
You can't pour from an empty cup. So make sure you are taking care of yourself first.